On one hand, I prefer an agnostic position (that is, there is a multiverse of possible realities, some might be deterministic, and some might be non-deterministic, and I don’t really know which of the realities I am in (or even if one can sometimes “migrate” between the realities, so these “implicit hidden fundamental properties” of the reality being deterministic/non-deterministic underneath might change through subjective time)). So if there is some aspect of demotivation here I am really struggling about myself, that would be how difficult it is to make real tangible scientific and philosophical progress towards better understanding the world I am in.
On other hand, when I really imagine the world being deterministic, I remind myself that my current state of elation/desperation/boredom/excitement/demotivation/being highly driven, myself currently writing this comment, and so on, is predetermined (under this assumption). The resulting reflection has interesting effects and changes my inner state quite a bit… It feels almost like a meditation-induced insight sometimes...
In some sense, my insufficient ability to believe in determinism is what interferes with my ability to have those nice meditation-like insights which change my inner state so much...
My answer has two parts.
On one hand, I prefer an agnostic position (that is, there is a multiverse of possible realities, some might be deterministic, and some might be non-deterministic, and I don’t really know which of the realities I am in (or even if one can sometimes “migrate” between the realities, so these “implicit hidden fundamental properties” of the reality being deterministic/non-deterministic underneath might change through subjective time)). So if there is some aspect of demotivation here I am really struggling about myself, that would be how difficult it is to make real tangible scientific and philosophical progress towards better understanding the world I am in.
On other hand, when I really imagine the world being deterministic, I remind myself that my current state of elation/desperation/boredom/excitement/demotivation/being highly driven, myself currently writing this comment, and so on, is predetermined (under this assumption). The resulting reflection has interesting effects and changes my inner state quite a bit… It feels almost like a meditation-induced insight sometimes...
In some sense, my insufficient ability to believe in determinism is what interferes with my ability to have those nice meditation-like insights which change my inner state so much...