I read all the way through, unfortunately this is pretty mathy for me and I don’t have much to say. I did like the visualization of updates as squishing the blob around—my own introduction to updating was via the sequences which didn’t have that.
For smooth, cylindrical ones, I usually take a sip of water and hold in in my mouth. Then I put the pill to my lips, suck it in, and swallow it in one action.
For dry tablets, I do Ryan’s method.
source: I’ve taken multiple pills a day for the last year.
He recounts this story in the Sequences.
I found those claims disturbing as well, but when I tried to verify them I pretty much hit a brick wall. As someone disconnected from the bay area community and fairly new to the online community, it’s very hard for me to dig into this sort of thing.
If you have more information than what was talked about on Sinceriously, I’d love to hear about it.
I don’t think so, ziz kind of has a reputation as a manipulator and lying tends to go hand in hand with that. It seems like a reasonable question to me.
Thanks. I was quite disappointed to see the discussion on the old post cut short.
All comments deleted?
edit: never mind, looks like hivewired deleted the original post and reposted it. Not sure why.
Very interesting post. I found Sinceriously to be a really good blog, full of ideas that resonated with my own experiences. I didn’t find her to be a very skilled manipulator though; her attempts to sway me were transparently obvious and I had no problem stripping out the unwanted stuff and keeping the useful ideas.
Perhaps it helps to have already embraced one’s dark side? Until now it hadn’t occurred to me that doing so might trigger such a catastrophic response as you talked about. Mine was painful but not dangerous, so I at least know it can be done safely.
I think most ads these days are pay per view (they’re trying to manipulate you via exposure, not by trying to get you to buy right away).
Advertisers and consumers are fundamentally opposed. Your ideal scenario is unstable because consumers will prefer true adblockers, and advertisers will prefer unblockable ads. Nobody has any reason to cooperate and whoever does so first will get eaten by the competition.
It did make me feel better immediately, but I always assumed that was just placebo. The first objective changes came after a couple days, when I happy cried at a movie for the first time in my life (that I can remember, anyways). What Vanessa says about different physical responses doesn’t really feel right; the emotion was very intense and I don’t remember feeling anything like it before.
Well, I was smiling and thinking “egg” after just a couple minutes because you describe an awful lot of little pieces of evidence that point towards being trans. So I expected that hrt would be a transformative sweep-away-all-doubt experience, like how it was for me. And on the off chance that you weren’t trans, then going on estrogen would cause dysphoria in the reverse of how being on testosterone messed my mind up.
And neither of those things happened! Which means it wasn’t you that was wrong, it was me.
Interesting post. Thank you for not trying to extrapolate your experiences to all trans people and kudos for trying hrt. I was shaking my head and thinking just try it halfway through the post and it was a pleasant surprise to find you ahead of me.
I have to say, the apathetic result is not at all what I had expected. I expected you to realize how wrong everything you said was, or possibly discovering what dysphoria really feels like. Instead it was… “not really a big deal, at all)”. Seems like that points to the cis-by-default theory I’ve seen a few times in rationalist circles.
Though I’d like to add that there’s nothing wrong with wanting to keep your mind unchanged and have a female body. Even for me, there were significant aspects of my pre-transition mind that I wanted to keep.
I spend a lot of time on the Bayesian Conspiracy discord. It’s nominally for discussion of the Bayesian Conspiracy podcast but in practice, TBC convos only happen in one channel and everything else is a rationalist hangout space.
I wouldn’t have gotten into rationality if it weren’t for the (implicit) promise that doing so would make me better.
I had terrible akrasia around going to sleep until I started taking 300mcg of melatonin an hour before I want to sleep. My problems pretty much vanished after I tried to play Dota after taking it and struggled to stay awake through it and the redshifted light from my screen. I did briefly have a lapse where I stopped taking it on schedule, but adding an alarm to my phone fixed that.
I also make it a point to lay down in bed and read on my redshifted phone, which likely helps. I’ve had no ill effects in the two years since, including addiction or tolerance (I can sleep just fine without it) and it’s cost me maybe twenty bucks.
Give it a try. Maybe it’ll be a miracle fix for you too.
I can’t speak for all trans people but my experience lines up neatly with that hypothesis. Hrt massively improved qol by alleviating dysphoria, and then I also got a new set of things to worry about but after the crushing weight of untreated dysphoria it doesn’t bother me so much...
… of course, I live in one of the most trans friendly places in the US, so I’m sure someone who was stuck in the deep south would have a very different experience.
Ironic that a post on writing humanly was written by a bot.
I’ve experienced this while playing multiple student roles. As the high school class clown, I loved these moments because they have me a chance to crack whatever joke I had been honing during the lecture. As the bored college student, I just stared at my notes and waited for someone else to speak. And on the rare occasion I was engaged I found them trite and annoying because if I had questions… then either I asked them mid lecture, or I figured it out on my own, or I had become hopelessly lost twenty minutes ago and fixing my broken mental model would take far more time than appropriate.
Yeah, ux is almost always ignored for internal software because you have a captive audience. If some peon hates the latest version of the warehouse app, it’s not like they can download a competitor’s app instead.