Thank you for writing this post. It can be hard to realize that one is in a persistent rut and harder to write it up publicly.
As someone similar to you (math competitions during high school, CS major, ambition often outruns my capacity, trying to avoid reverting to the mean during my adult years), I believe that I’m susceptible to failure modes like this. DM me if you want to video call to exchange advice or something; this would be valuable enough to me that I’m willing to pay a fair rate if you need funding.
Thank you for writing this post. It can be hard to realize that one is in a persistent rut and harder to write it up publicly.
As someone similar to you (math competitions during high school, CS major, ambition often outruns my capacity, trying to avoid reverting to the mean during my adult years), I believe that I’m susceptible to failure modes like this. DM me if you want to video call to exchange advice or something; this would be valuable enough to me that I’m willing to pay a fair rate if you need funding.