A quick summary of the phenomenology of my thoughts:
thoughts primarily have shapes, textures, and other touch-related features
prior/below the level of words, my thoughts are like touch-felt objects that exist in a field that permeates my body
thinking feels like exploring, as in i’m traveling around finding/bumping into thought objects
sometimes i’m not very in touch with this aspect though and i can’t feel it, but i’m pretty sure it’s always there for hard to explain reasons
when i can’t see it words seem to just come up from nowhere for unknown reasons
Some differences from your model:
i don’t have what feels like a badness check, rather it feels like i have a thought and then maybe a linked thought is about what the consequences of it might be, and sometimes those are bad.
but sometimes i might be distracted and not follow up and notice the bad association.
i don’t have what feels like a badness check, rather it feels like i have a thought and then maybe a linked thought is about what the consequences of it might be, and sometimes those are bad.
I think this is actually probably what’s going on with me, upon further reflection.
A quick summary of the phenomenology of my thoughts:
thoughts primarily have shapes, textures, and other touch-related features
prior/below the level of words, my thoughts are like touch-felt objects that exist in a field that permeates my body
thinking feels like exploring, as in i’m traveling around finding/bumping into thought objects
sometimes i’m not very in touch with this aspect though and i can’t feel it, but i’m pretty sure it’s always there for hard to explain reasons
when i can’t see it words seem to just come up from nowhere for unknown reasons
Some differences from your model:
i don’t have what feels like a badness check, rather it feels like i have a thought and then maybe a linked thought is about what the consequences of it might be, and sometimes those are bad.
but sometimes i might be distracted and not follow up and notice the bad association.
I think this is actually probably what’s going on with me, upon further reflection.